The down side.

I decided that I needed to blog on how I have been feeling lately.
I am at a stand still with this deployment. Knowing Matt will be here in only 35 days and yet it seems so far away it is driving me nuts. I miss him more and more and then feel like anger and not sure if I want to see him but do want to see him. It is very very crazy! I am super stressed and I feel it within the boys as well. They are feeding off my stress and feeding off my anger. It sucks because we have some pretty down days. I started to potty train Alex 3 days ago and its going up and down and up and down and with me being so down in the dumps its just making it that much worse. He is so stubborn and I know he knows how to pee in the potty and poop! He has done both many many times its just he is like if I dont want to mom I am not going to till its when i want to! lol He is too cute. He is doing good though. I have to say I am pretty proud of him, I thought it would be way harder. I praise God for getting me through this hard time, No matter what he is there for me and I am greatful.
I am hoping that this time goes by faster and faster. It has been going fast but feels at a stand still again. I pray that I get back on track and start being the mom and wife that I should be and not so uptight!