Daddy's home.

Well he came home January 15th. We are so blessed! We got there at the gate and waited and waited and theNews Guy from KSDK channel 5 was there it was nice. He litterally was the last one on the plane. When he came out everyone in the airport clapped for him! It was awesome! We ran and hugged him and it was just a GREAT feeling to be a Whole Family again.
I have to say still to this day it does not seem like its real. Everything down to the whole year we spent with him does not even seem real.
i am like did I really go through a whole year with out him.? and then I start to cry! I cannot beleive that God gave me such grace and such Strength to get through that whole year with out my husband and go through the trials that I had to go through. I am truly blessed!!!
The first week and a half were kind of tough. He is used to his own way and doing things for himself and I am use to my own way and use to doing things for just me and the boys and so we classed a bit. It was almost like I wanted him to go away again so that I can have my normal. Yet, finally withthe Grace of God again we got it back to our normal. We are so much in love, so much more than we ever have been.
We have so many family movie nights and we just sit around and love on each other as a family all the time. Bry of course was so happy and is so happy to have his Daddy home! Hes the only one that Bry wants to take him to school and pick him up and play hockey with and well everything! Every once in a while it hurts my feelings but then I get over it. I for the whole year got to be the favorite , got to be the one that Bry said oh mommy I love you so much. The one that Bry wanted to cuddle with, hug , kiss, play with and read books with. Now that daddy's home I have been replaced lol. Don't get me wrong I do enjoy the fact that I am not the one that is on high demand any more, but at times , times just like yesterday I get my heart crushed just a bit.
I for the first time Picked up bry by myself at school and he asked Where is my daddy? I said at home with Alex, he looked at me and said no!! I want my daddy here to pick me up not you!!! I said why? He said because I love him I dont love you any more! I said Bry that is not nice and he said I know mom I am just a big meanie!!! ~ Which caught me off guard and made me laugh ... But yes he was being a big meanie! I brush it off a lot of the times. I know he loves me and needs me just when he says things like that just sometimes it makes me sad...
We have been trully blessed by God this whole year and the more to come.
I feel like I have changed in to a better person, for me and my family. I have to keep pinching myself are we all really here together as a family?? its really nice !! I am so happy and thankful.
I love being a military wife (for now) lol

7 More days!

Time has been going by fast. We got through Christmas and New years with out Daddy!
Christmas was bitter sweet! The boys still got A christmas with Daddy Via SkYPE! They enjoyed all their presents and had a great night! Stayed up till 12:3o am Christmas Morning. They did Christmas on Christmas eve. We were so blessed with the presents we got from my in laws!
I can not beleive that we have 7 more days till we are a whole family!! What a blessing! God is Good!!
He gives me strength every single day! I love the person I am! I can't wait to start our life together again! I can't wait to cuddle and hug and kiss my husband! I cant wait for the boys to be with their daddy and have lots and lots of fun! Playing hockey!
I am super excited.. Plus we are having a welcome home party for him on Saturday as well!
This year has been a roller coaster of a ride but I am blessed and I have over came all the trials that i have needed. I am still going through things every day but i have my Lord holding my hand and standing right next to me getting me through these days! I am soooo blessed! I love my husband and i am so proud of him !!!

Thanksgiving.

Another Holiday we have to spend away from daddy... Yet,
I feel very sad that we will not be with daddy tomorrow , I am very blessed that we will get to spend it with my mom and dad. This is going to be the first and last time we will get to in a long time. :) God is good!
I honestly did not think that it would hit me and make me sad to not be with Matt on Thanksgiving, Why I thought that I have no clue!? lol I guess I felt that we were always thankful for all the things we have and that it was just another day to us. Yet I see all the families together and my friends with their spouses and it makes me sad. To think just last year we were all a family and we went to Granny's house all together.
I guess i have to just be glad that we only have 7 more weeks and after the long long year that we have almost been through that should be nothing... like I said SHOULD be nothing yet it still feels like its going super duper slow at times.
Well here we go the things that I am thankful for...
I am so blessed and Thankful for my Lord and saviour ! He has blessed me with two wonderful boys and a Wonderful husband! I am so thankful for the three of them! They fill my life with lots of laughs and hugs and kisses and memories for a life time! They give me so much hope and pride.
I am thankful that I have gone through 10 months without my husband and Grew as a person spiritaly and emotionaly. I am so much stronger than I have ever been in my life.
I am thankful that God blessed us with this deployment in the fact that I needed to find him again in my life. I needed to get back to Church and praising our Lord and this is how he got me back! :) Also I needed to take a look at my marriage and see what I was doing to harm it. I am blessed that God is helping me to be a better wife to my husband!
I am thankful for my parents being able to share in the holidays with us and that Elliott is doing better. :) I am thankful that God put Elliotts mom back in to his life recently and all of his family! He is soo Good!
I am thankful for the friends that God has put in to my life. I love them all! :)
I am thankful for my mother in law who has helped me so oooo soo much throught this year!
I am thankful that God helped me appreciate so much and never take advantage of the little things we have in life!
Happy Thanksgiving!

ALmost a week

It has almost been a week since Matt left... and I have to say this time was so much easier. I cried but not too bad and I still get teary eyed... but I am still strong. I keep telling myself its only two months Melissa and it helps me get through!

So much is going on here at the house so much stress but I am so blessed that God has strengthen me and helped me get through all of it. Pretty soon we will be debt free and Matt will be home and we will be a family once again.

It's almost Thanksgiving. Then Black friday .. :) Then sooner than we know it, it will be Christmas. Then New year and then soon after Daddy will be home! :)
61 days to go!

November 14th 2010

I actually wrote this on November 14th but did not get a chance to post it....

Matt just left today after a fun filled awesome 2 weeks with us! We had a nice halloween with a haunted house inthe garage. Bry was a blues hockey player and Alex was a Vampire. We drove all the way to florida and got on a Royal carribean cruise to the bahamas. It was really really nice there.
Alex and I picked up Matt at the airport. that was pretty AWESOME. We met him at the gate, Alex ran to his daddy and gave him big hugs on the floor!! Then I went down to my knees and hugged the both of them for like 2 minutes! It was something I will never ever forget! Then Matt went to surpise Bryan at his School, KSDK was there they heard that Matt was going to be coming home and doing the suprise and wanted to be apart of it! I still cry to when I see the video! I was so so so nervous the day Matt came home. I have no idea why I was nervous I guess all the time away I wondered if we would all be the same together. As soon as we got together it was like he never ever left we all clicked and were a family once again!

Today I have to say was hard. I felt that I was not strong enough to take Matt to the Airport so we took him to the Metro. I cried the whole way to the Metro and after his last hug and kiss ! Then cried when we got home. House felt so quiet and lonely! Its werid to think a house can feel quiet and lonely with two toddlers! We spent two whole weeks always together, so it was hard to all of a sudden just not have him around. We have been praying and praying today! Praying for Strength for all 4 of us! Today went by slow but I have to say not as slow as Jan 18th 2010 did! We have about 9 weeks till he comes back so I pray God Gets us through and also gives us all strength each and every day.

I am so blessed to have a GREAT husband like him and I cant wait to hug and kiss him again and go live our happily ever after in Hawaii! Let the Countdown begin 67 days!

R&R

Matt is on his leave right now. So he is finally home after 9 1/2 months
I have to say being at the airport with him was awesome.....
I have missed him so much. I was so nervous to get him and it seemed like everything was
the same as before he left
we go on our cruise in a few days and I am excited for that we have never been to the bahamas or on a big vacation like that
I am so blessed to have him safe in our home
I am sad that he is leaving again soon but we are blessed to only have 2 months after that left then we can start getting ready for Hawaii
I have to say that before he got here i was a bunch of nerves the whole week prior I cried a lot and I was so nervous that things would be so different and so chaotic and you know its been so great
I am feeling a little sad about the fact that he is leaving in 13 days but I am trying to see it as we have 13 more wonderful days with daddy
I look at the way things are and I think how the heck did I do it for this long with out him and how the heck am I going to do this again with him gone
It scares me but I know that my faith in our Lord will get me through and keep me

Humbled!

My sweet little 3 year old Humbles me quite often these days. After a full 2 days of Alexandre' being too much for me. Crying at the drop of a hat, Throwing a tantrum for anything i say or dont say. Crying for anything Bry does. I had had it! I was done with the little terrible two year old. I was as patient as I Possibly was going to be. I yelled at him and told him to get his Behind upstairs. He said no to me and then the fight contiuned. We finally got upstairs... screaming and kicking but we got upstairs... Bry started to pray! He was praying for me to have patience and Alex not to be so naughty! It made me stop and think about what I was doing and how i was acting and I just started to cry! Once again he showed me what I should be doing. :) That little boy is so sweet. It made me so proud that I have taught my son so well. Well enough that he knows when its time to pray! He is the sweetest thing sometimes and it just makes me feel so GREAT!!! I have been sick and worn down the past two days so I n eeded that prayer! Now off to bed early again. :)