High hopes.

We are on Week 9 now and time is still continuing to fly! I have been 2 months away from my husband, it has so far been a tough journey but I am looking up from here on out. :) I have been so down and missing Matt so much lately. I started talking to my neighbor and she was telling me about her church and about her bible study group and even gave me lesson plans they did last week and reading all this and preparing for bible study gave me such high hopes for our future, I feel God has helped me as always in the weridest ways get back to fighting this fight against satin and his demons. I feel like so much stress has been lifted from my shoulders and i feel like a Stronger person spiritually. I am greatful for this I truly am. Although I am realistic and now that I will most likely have more ups and more downs.. I truly feel I have GOD on my side. I know with our love ( my husbands and my) we can get through anything. This is going to make us stronger as a couple and as a family, also as individuals. I love God, love my husband and I love my boys, I am here ready and armed for what the world may send my way.

Been a while....

It has been a little while since I last really blogged. Life has gone upside down and inside out the past month. Most of the time I don't even know what day it is.. What time it is.. or month lol. I have my days when I miss Matt soo much it hurts. Then I have my days that go by so fast I don't have time to miss Matt. Matt and I talk every day, we still have are disagreements even being so far apart.. lol I guess we always will. We have decided to put Bry in preschool for a summer Session. I am excited for that since I really want him to be socialized. :) He is doing so good, he have been an awesome great big brother for Alex. We are putting Bry in T-ball this summer , cant wait! Alex is talking so much more now. He is so cute. He makes me smile, but he is a lot more bossy and thinks he needs to get what he wants all the time lol. Terrible twos seem to have started already! lol I feel like I am in for a long long year! Matt has been gone 8 weeks today. Seems like a long time but then again does not seem like a long time.. But at least we have only 10 months left right?! :) Matt is set to come home at the End of October for two weeks. It sucks that it is not sooner rather than later but then again when he leaves us again we will only have 8 weeks left. I guess 8 weeks wont be so bad after 10 whole months. Right now it seem like forever since we just got through the first 8 weeks.
There are days where my life is a blur and I just want my life to go back to normal. With Matt here and us living as a family here in our house alone. I have to say it is not always easy sharing our home, our food, our space. Especially when I am missing matt terribly and instead of him being here someone else is.. .I at times feel selfish ... I am working on that.
I love my friends so much. If it was not for them I would not be getting through these tough and good days! Hopefully we get through the next 8weeks just as fast. :)

Myself?!

I have not been myself lately. Things have been quite a roller coaster for me and for the boys. I am hoping we are over this hump and will slowly go back to whater ever normal is at this point. We have had situations happen and set us back quite a bit.. took me back to almost feeling the way I felt week one! I have started to miss Matt a lot! and feel like it will be forever till we see him again. I am not excited for much of anything an y more and its horrible. My awesome In laws took the boys this weekend so I can have a much much much needed break! :) I hope this helps me get back to reality and be the great loving mom and wife I know I can be. I get to take a nap !!! lol and wake up late! woo hoo! I was very sick yesterday!! I think from stress! I feel better today and hope that it continues to get better. :) We found out Matt will be home for his 2 week break in October yay!!! now if it was only October! Slowly but surely! I can not wait to be myself again... :)